it Hurts.

it Hurts again.
why?
so I'll remember.
every time.
everytime I don't feel like working
everytime I feel like just sleeping
everytime I feel like blowing off a chance
everytime I don't feel like writing
everytime I feel like blowing my money
on drinking
I'll remember This Hurt.
I swear I will
I promise to you I will
but I know that eventually
I won't
and that Hurts even more
I'll get lazy and I'll get stupid
and I'll get complacent and think
that I can get by and no-one will notice
but inside...
I will
I will notice. I will know
and it will Hurt even more

when will the Hurt stop? how hard do I have to work?
how much do I have to write?
how little do I have to sleep to make the Hurt go away???