Apologies for the lack of posting lately. I wish I had been running my ass off with stuff, but I haven't really. Or maybe I have. I don't know. I really wish I could re-start the whole creative engine, because I have some stuff inside that is just itching to come out.
I'm back in the godforsaken smelly cathouse, until December when my friend Sharon will be going back to Winnipeg for a while and I will once again enjoy West End luxury for a few months. By the time that is over I need to be able to have my own place. Punctuation Mark.
I did a day yesterday on....Smallville. No, my dreams of 'making it' haven't come true. I'm working on it as a P.A. Sigh. It's not quite being an extra, but damn close. I'm back there today for one more day, and I really don't want to work on that show again, and wonder why I feel that way...maybe because it's the first time I've ever worked on a show that I actually watch, and have fantasized about getting an acting gig on. It's part of the reason I came out here, I guess, and some of you know I've written a Spec script for it, so in some way Smallville represents part of my idealized showbiz dream. Maybe a wakeup from the dream is what I need to become succesful in whatever it is I end up doing, I don't know. The frustrating thing is that being crew for the show feels like being sooo close to grabbing the brass ring of what it is that I want, yet at the same time so very far away. I walked right by Tom Welling who plays Clark yesterday, kind of didn't see him until the last minute, so never said anything to him, not that I would have anything to say anyway...he has a cool dog which he brings to set. He's not there today, but Michael Rosenbaum(Lex) is in today...I suppose if I get the chance to tell him I enjoy the job he does on the show, I will. Actors like to be complimented on their work, because hell, I am one, right? I have to remember that when I'm standing around at 2 AM tomorrow morning sweeping cigarette butts off the ground.
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